Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Thankfulness

We have so much to be thankful for this year. God has provided for us – like He always does – but He has blessed us with a lot of the desires of our heart in 2008. I am thankful for our salvation, our health, for Collin’s new job, for the opportunity to be close to my parents for the first time in 7 years, for good friendships and wonderful family, and for never being in need of anything…there are so many things. But this year, I have such a special thing to be thankful for. I am tearing up just typing this, but I am SO grateful for this precious little boy growing inside of me. I remember back to this time last year…Collin and I wanted a baby so bad. We hadn’t been trying to get pregnant very long and were very hopeful and optimistic but as time started going by and it wasn’t happening, I started to get worried. It seemed like everyone around us was getting pregnant fast and while we were thrilled for them, we secretly wondered if anything was wrong with us. All I’ve ever really wanted to be is a wife and a mom and the thought that it might not ever happen for me was devastating. Every month that we weren’t pregnant was heart breaking. God revealed a lot to me during that time of waiting. He showed me overwhelming love and more than anything, He showed His sovereignty throughout this whole process. He grew Collin and I even closer and provided such an encouragement and support for me in Collin. When I finally saw those 2 pink lines on the pregnancy stick on May 2nd, I burst into tears immediately. And looking back on it, I am amazed. We had no idea at that time that we would be moving 300 miles across the state in just 4 ½ short months. If we had gotten pregnant any earlier than we did, it would have made for a big mess. We have needed these months since we moved here to prepare for the baby. We could have made it work, don’t get me wrong, but God knew all the details and made it a smooth transition for us. Thankfully, nothing was wrong with us and it was just a matter of timing and waiting on Him. He is always so faithful to me and yet I always stand amazed at His perfection with all things in my life.

We weren’t trying to get pregnant for very long compared to so many people but when you’re worried that it might not happen for you, it seems like longer. My in-laws tried for years and years to get pregnant before Collin came along. I read blogs of girls all the time who have been trying for 2 years or 4 years or longer and are having to go through all kinds of fertility treatments. It absolutely breaks my heart. I in no way want this to sound like I’m complaining because it took us longer than we thought it would to get pregnant. I just want to share how especially thankful we are for our little blessing. God answered our prayers with this baby. I want Cayden to always know and feel how very loved he is and how much we wanted and prayed for God to bring him to us. My cup truly runneth over this year… Thank You Lord for all of your many blessings and for answered prayers in Your perfect timing. My friend Stephanie emailed me this poem the other day, saying that it made her think of Cayden. I cannot read it without tearing up and smiling at the same time.

A Little Boy
Scuffed up knees, a freckled nose with dimples here and there.
A daring, caring, sharing heart; a mass of tousled hair.
Boundless curiosity, the spirit to explore.
Two twinkling eyes, a smiling face, and energy galore!
A love of life, a bit of sass, a source of untold joy.
A wonderment, a dream fulfilled, God’s miracle…… a Boy!!!

If you’re waiting on God to answer your prayers this year, please know that He hears you. And that even if you’re having to wait for something, there is a reason and He will work out all the details. It will be better than you can even ask or imagine. Cast all of your cares on Him because He really does care about you so much. And His strength truly is made complete in our weakness.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Guess What?!?

Cayden has turned and is no longer breech!!! I had my 34 week doctors appointment yesterday and was surprised to learn that this babe is now head down! So, unless he switches back (which is unlikely), I will most likely not have to have a c-section! Cayden was moving around SO MUCH last week and I'm sure it was during that time that he switched positions. I had been telling Collin for several days that I felt like he dropped, which I know seems crazy because it's too early for that. It just felt different...when I sat down, it felt bigger towards the bottom of my stomach - more pressure. Neither Collin nor I figured it out that it was because his head is now down low and I was feeling that. Ha! I felt silly yesterday when I put two and two together. My feet are still swollen but my blood pressure is still good and everything else is perfectly normal. And I only gained 2 ounces in the last 2 weeks. Since I learned that, I have devoured almost an entire bag of candy cane hershey kisses. Have you ever had those? I LOVE them! I figured I could indulge since my weight gain was very slim the last 2 weeks :) I'm not eating them for myself...I'm trying to fatten this baby up! Haha...I'm obviously in denial.

Collin and I bought part of our Christmas present to one another this past weekend. We had decided that we wanted to get a new digital camera before Cayden's born. We shopped around online, found what we wanted, found the best price, and on Sunday afternoon we went and bought it! We love it so much! We're still learning how to use all the features and everything but we're looking forward to all the pictures that we'll be able to take with it! Here's a belly shot that Collin took of me on Sunday at 33 weeks, 4 days.

Collin did his ride along with his cop friend on Saturday night. He had a good time and came home with lots of stories. Mostly stories about how silly people are and some of the ridiculous reasons why they call the cops. But he did have a sad story about a 15 year old boy who they arrested. He was drunk and found with a marijuana pipe. So sad... But Collin got home safe and sound at about 2:30 AM on Sunday morning. I couldn't sleep with him gone so we were both really tired the next day but he's glad that he did it and has a lot of respect for police officers.

I hope everyone is getting ready for Thanksgiving. I am thrilled about all the food this year, maybe because I can eat without feeling guilty about it!

Friday, November 21, 2008

To God be ALL the glory...

God humbled us and showed off a little yesterday so I have to share how awesome He is!

When Collin began feeling God pulling us to another city, we had no idea exactly why. As he began looking for another job and as time went on, the market was getting worse and things at his company began to decline. Over the last 6 months, he began feeling like the company might have to pass out layoff's after the first of the year, which only caused Collin to look harder for another job. He accepted the job that he has now in August, we moved in September, and he started October 1st. As anyone who pays attention to what's going on in the world knows, October was a rough month in the financial world. We learned yesterday that a Financial Planner at Collin's old company (which was his old department) was laid off. We feel confident that if Collin was still there, it would have been him and this woman both laid off. That's not to say anything negative about Collin. He is a hard worker and was loved at his old job but he had less experience than everyone else in his department and was the youngest on the team (besides the interns, of course). So, all that to say, we could be having a very different week this week. God not only got Collin out of that situation at the perfect time but he provided him with a great job making more money with a boss that he really likes! We are counting our blessings right now for sure. Praise be to Him, the giver of all good and perfect gifts!

If you are struggling with something today, I encourage you to give it to Him. He truly does work all things together for our good. He looks out for His children constantly and is working in our lives even when we don't feel like it. And His timing is ALWAYS perfect.

"Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?" -Matthew 6:26

The woman that was laid off is named Sue. If you think about it, you can join us in praying for her. I cannot imagine how hard it would be to lose a job right now...right before Christmas and in a field that is really hard to find a job in currently.

In other news, this is the first weekend since we moved here that we don't have any major plans. I am so excited! I think we'll just hang around the house tonight, run some errands tomorrow, and then tomorrow night Collin is going on a Citizen's Ride Along with his new friend Brandon, who is a police officer. Please say a prayer for him! I'm sure it's totally safe but I'm a little paranoid. We went to dinner with Brandon and his wife Stephanie and some other friends on Monday night and Brandon had bruises and scratches all along his arms from chasing a guy down. He spent a long time talking to us about his cop stories and while it's interesting to hear, it makes me nervous thinking about my husband being with him!!!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Oh my...

That little ticker to the right is getting awfully close to the end! Less than 50 days to go until we are 40 weeks! This pregnancy is going by so fast, I can hardly believe it! We are now 33 weeks along and it's crazy to me to think about how big Cayden is already...according to Babycenter, he is over 4 pounds and is over 17 inches in length. I believe it too...his movements are becoming so overwhelmingly strong that they make me jump sometimes! He does these body rolls that make my stomach twist in crazy shapes. There's nothing like it!

Last weekend, we took a Lamaze/Childbirth class. It was a Friday night (6-10) and all day Saturday (10-6) class through the hospital. We really liked our teacher - she made it humorous and was very knowledgeable. We learned a lot about different pain management techniques and different laboring positions. We got to try all the different things out, which felt a little silly in a room full of strangers, but I'm glad we did because it allowed Collin and I to see what really works for me and what positions were most comfortable. We learned how to time contractions, detailed info on c-sections (we were the only ones in our class that had a breech baby but the teacher indulged us and gave us the skinny on what to expect, should it come to that), and all kinds of info. I had heard horror stories from several friends about the awful videos that were shown in their childbirth class so I was a little nervous. We only saw 2 graphic videos and the worst of those wasn't as bad as what I was expecting. The teacher did bust out with a baby doll and a pelvis and showed us how the baby fits through but it wasn't as bad as it sounds. We left the class feeling better about the labor & delivery process and more prepared.

I promise that I am going to post about our baby showers, I am just waiting on some pics from the Fort Worth shower. I hardly took any pictures but my friend Leslie took some so as soon as I get those, I'll post about everything!

Friday, November 14, 2008

The Final Hurrah

Since we, along with our dearest friends the Simpson's, are about to embark on the journey of parenthood, we decided to take one final evening to get dressed up and go out on the town before the babies arrive. Clint, Ris, and I met Collin downtown (since he works there, he was already there) last night and ate dinner at the Reata. The Reata is a restaurant that I have always wanted to go to but have never been. It's a 3 story restaurant - the 3rd story is the roof and you can eat outside or under this beautiful dome. We ate under the dome and had a great view of downtown. Plus, the Lord blessed us with a full moon last night so it was especially beautiful. I have always loved downtown Fort Worth at night. There are lights in all of the trees and on many of the buildings. It's so pretty. No matter what time of year it is, it always feels a little like Christmas to me with all the lights. I love it! It was neat for Collin to get to be down there after dark - it's always light when he arrives and when he leaves, so he had never gotten to see it lit up. The weather last night was perfect. We really could not have picked a better night to go. Collin got a ribeye and I had chicken fried steak and it was SO good! I should have taken pictures of our food, but I didn't. We each got a dessert (something different) and then shared. They were so yummy! Here's a picture before we devoured the desserts.


Collin's office is right across the street from the Reata so we were all able to go over and see where he works. It was so nice and I loved being able to see where he spends his workdays! We took the opportunity to take a couple of pictures while we were there.


Is this chair not hilarious?! This is one of the seating options in the reception area/waiting room in Collin's office. It looks totally out of place. There's a normal leather couch and a few normal chairs and then this. Larissa and I were joking about how awkward it would be if you came into the office and that was the only chair left for you to sit in. Ha! You cannot tell from this picture, but the chair is so large that my feet weren't touching the ground! That's a big chair because I am 5'7"! We had a great time last night - it's so weird to think that pretty soon the 4 of us won't be able to do that without having to get babysitters!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Baby Update

I have not been great about updating what's going on in our lives lately, so I am going to try and be better about that. I'll start with my favorite topic, Cayden!

I went to the doctor on Monday for my most recent check up. Little Cayden is doing great. He is measuring right on track with my due date and is an active little cutie, so all seems to be well. I have been coming down with some sort of cold or something so the doc put me on a z-pack and I feel better already. And I was told that about a week after I'm done with my z-pack, Collin and I have to go get flu shots. I was thinking that since I was pregnant I shouldn't do that this year, but my doctor looked at me like I was crazy when I said that so I guess whoever told me that was a liar. When I told Collin about that, he was less than thrilled. He got a flu shot last year and then got the flu but he'll suck it up for Cayden and get one :)

My feet are still crazy swollen so that's not fun but my blood pressure is still great so that's a blessing. Hopefully that will continue throughout these final weeks. I had a sonogram to check the little guys position and sure enough, that stinker is still breech. I really felt like he was but at least we know now for sure. I think that if he turns, I will know it. The doctor says that we don't need to worry at this point but that I need to start thinking about whether or not I would want her to try and turn him (a procedure that does NOT sound fun) should I get to the end and he's still breech. She said there's still a chance that he'll turn on his own but the more time that goes on, the less likely that is. She gave me some exercises that I can do to try and encourage him to flip on his own. So far it hasn't helped but it's only been 2 days. I feel him trying to turn on his own but, for whatever reason, he's having trouble. Poor little guy. We will do another sonogram in 2 weeks to check his position again and then a big one at 36 weeks to check his measurements and everything. I am so curious to know how big he is!

We've had a couple showers in the last few weeks and are pretty ready for this little guy! There's just a few last minute things that I need to get. The glider that we ordered came in last week so I went and picked it up last night. Collin and my dad set it up and it's WONDERFUL! I love it so much. I could sit in it all day. Plus it has an ottoman so I can prop my fat feet up while lounging in it, so that's a plus.

My mom is starting to think that he might come early with my feet being so swollen so she's helping and encouraging me to be completely prepared by early-mid December. With me, she had to have an emergency c-section at 36 weeks and they were not prepared, so she keeps saying, "If that were to happen, I want you and Collin to be prepared!" She's sweet. She even keeps making comments about having Cade's stocking ready (she's making it) in case he is to grace us with his presence before Christmas. I really don't think that will happen but I guess you never know. It's better to be prepared, right? I'll post about the showers over the last few weekends soon. We've had so much fun and been so blessed by all the things we've gotten!

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Thoughts about last night...

No matter your thoughts about the election results last night (and believe me, I am less than thrilled), Beth Moore posted a blog today that is worth reading...

A United House
To my beloved Sisters who I esteem so highly and consistently find to be part of the solution to our problems in the Church rather than the cause,

Please join me in praying for our President-elect Barack Obama, his wife Michelle, and his precious daughters, Sasha and Malia. Go with me before the Throne of our sovereign God and ask Him to grant wisdom from above to President-elect Obama and the indwelling presence and power of Jesus Christ. In the words of the Apostle Paul, "I urge, then, first of all, that requests, prayers, intercession and thanksgiving be made for everyone - for kings and all those in authority, that we may live peaceful and quiet lives in all godliness and holiness. This is good, and pleases God our Savior..."

Please also join me in the active and deliberate pursuit of unity and purity in the Body of Christ at this historical time in our country. I implore you in Jesus Name to have zero tolerance for prejudice whether it is regarding party-affiliation, color (whether you are Black, White, or Brown), economics or the like. Disagreement is not sin. Prejudice is. Satan has plotted events and planted attitudes that, should he be successful, will result in havoc. We must not stand for his schemes or cooperate in a single way. We would severely displease God and invite untold chastisement upon Christ's Church in our nation. Speak clearly to your children and graciously but emphatically draw a line in your work places and social circles regarding your stand against prejudice of any kind.

"Jesus knew their thoughts and said to them, 'Every kingdom divided against itself will be ruined, and every city or household divided against itself will not stand.'" (Matthew 12:25) A united house stands. A divided house falls. The devil has much to gain. But he also has much to lose.

We are the Body of Jesus Christ and we have an opportunity to show His character. This is our watch. We stand for what is right not from our feet but from our knees.

I humble myself before you and make these pleas under such bold direction of God that I could not resist it nor disobey it. He made it a fire in my bones.

I love and esteem you so much. Shoulder to shoulder, Dear Siestas. Let's leave not one inch for the enemy to come between us.