Saturday, July 28, 2007

Bittersweet News

Well, it has been a sad 24 hours. As many of you know, we learned in May that Collin's grandmother, June Day, has stomach cancer. We have been praying for her, for Collin's Papaw, and for God's perfect timing to reign down in her final months. Her cancer is fairly aggressive and we knew she didn't have much longer. Yesterday morning we got the call that hospice doesn't think she'll make it through the weekend. Over the past several weeks she has become bed-ridden and can no longer eat anything and Thursday night she became unable to even take her medication. Hospice is usually fairly accurate at predicting things like this, so we feel fairly certain that she will go be with the Lord soon. This is a bittersweet revelation. We love her so much and are so sad to see her go. There are memories that we still wanted to create with her. Collin and I sat on the couch last night and talked about how we want her here for Connor's (Collin's little brother) high school graduation and wedding and how more than anything we want our unborn children to get to know her-- she truly is a remarkable woman. At the same time, the thought of her suffering is heart breaking. We want her to go be in the most beautiful place, where she will feel no pain and get to be in the presence of the Almighty. There's a part of me that's in awe of the fact that June will soon be face to face with our Heavenly Father!!! What an amazing thing. And what peace it brings us, her family, to know where she's going.

June is a very strong Christian lady and one of the sweetest people anyone will ever meet. She is selfless and compassionate and has many, many qualities of the Proverbs 31 woman. Last night, we got a phone call from Charlotte, Collin's mom, who said that Thursday evening some women from their church and neighborhood had been over to June's house to sit with her and to read scripture to her. Charlotte said that despite everything, June was laying in the bed reciting the scripture along with the women. What an amazing Godly woman...

We have been reading the book 90 Days in Heaven. It's a book written by a pastor in Alvin who says that he legally died and went to Heaven (he actually did legally die in a car accident and then came back to life 90 minutes later). It sounds weird, I know, but you should read it nonetheless. Regardless of whether you think this guy is a quack or you believe him, the way that he depicts Heaven is biblical and has really helped us in this time. He says that when he got to Heaven there was a HUGE crowd of people there to greet him. They were people that had been spiritual influences in his life--either they had touched him in some way or vise-versa. His "Heaven Welcoming Committee" if you will. He describes everyone's jubilance to see him and the overwhelming love and joy that he felt. He goes on to describe the glorious music and noises that he heard, the pearly gate that we so often hear talked about, etc. When I think about June and what a strong Christian lady she is, and how many lives have been influenced for the greater good because of her, I cannot help but think about her Heaven Welcoming Committee that is getting ready to greet her in this very moment. There will be so many people that will be overjoyed at the sight of her and it makes my heart smile to know that she will be welcomed in such a way and loved on SO MUCH! What indescribable peace we have as Christians knowing where our loved ones are going.

We have spent last night and will spend today getting ready to leave. We aren't sure exactly what the plans will be, but we are trying to get ready to go and then will just play it by ear. Collin technically gets 3 days off for bereavement so we're trying to time it right. We have already looked into hotels in San Angelo, we're trying to figure out what to do with Ace (we still aren't sure!), and now are just waiting for the call.

Even though we knew this was iminent, it's still such an emotional time. This is the first family death that Colln's experienced and it's a really difficult thing. It was 13 years ago this month that I lost my amazing grandmother and it brings back emotions from that experience for me, as well. We aren't sure what will happen in the next several days, but please keep our family in your prayers. Please pray specifically for Carrol, Collin's dad, and for Randy, Collin's uncle. This is their mother...I cannot imagine losing my mother. Thanks for the prayers- we will try to update when we can!



Honea Household said...

My heart is so heavy for you. You guys are welcome to stay here at our house. I'm about to call you. Love you and I'm praying for you and the family at this time.